Or in the case of me, 4 years -almost- you see I had completely forgotten that I had started this blog back in 2007. Part of me is glad I had forgotten, you see I read the old posts and I don’t recognise the person who wrote them anymore. Maybe that’s because the person who started this blog so long ago, no longer exists? Let me explain.
4 Years ago I was in heavy civil partnership ceremony prep for the relationship that I was in, I was 22st 12, I had zero self-esteem and my circle of friends was dictated for the most part by who my partner knew. I was in a word, incomplete. Incomplete, but to the outside world living a good life, after all I had a house I shared with my partner, a dog, worked from home helping to set up and run my partners business. For many people this situation could be seen as picture perfect, lack of self-identity be damned I had it all.
Now flash forward nearly 4 years, I am a failed Civil partnership survivor – the relationship itself imploding roughly 8 months after the ceremony, I’m now a much healthier 14st 7, I have confidence in my own self and what I’m capable of, I have an amazingly supportive partner of almost 3 years who encourages me in everything I do and my friends are exactly that, my friends, nobody dictates to me who I can and who I can’t associate with. But there is still something missing.
Now that’s not a complaint, far from it I’m actually quite glad something is missing, because it gives me something to strive for. But what is that thing that’s missing? Well it’s no one thing it’s lots of things, which I thought I’d list so here we go.
- Finalise dissolution of Civil Partnership – Working on it and should be finalised by the end of summer.
- Get job as an Account Manager at UKFast – Now this is a very defined goal. I know the job I want, I know the company I want to work for and I know I’m capable of getting it. So to that end I have an interview with them next week where I will sell myself to them.
- Own MGF/MGTF by the time I’m 31 – I would like to say there is absolutely nothing wrong with my current car, but the Peugeot Partner Combi that I drive is very much mid-thirties with 2.4 children, which is great if you are that person. I however am not.
- Revisit Sri Lanka, but do it my way – Sri Lanka was where I went for my honeymoon with the ex and I instantly fell in love with the country, but time was limited, my ex worked pretty much every evening we were out there and I missed so much of this amazing country that it would be criminal not to revisit.
- Go to New York, on my own, for a long weekend – This one may seem a strange one, after all why would I want to go to New York, for a weekend, on my own when I have an amazing partner who I love dearly? It is for purely selfish reasons, when I was younger –we’re talking about 13/14 here- I always said that one day I would go there, drink in the city that never sleeps and loose myself for 48 hours, just spend 48 hours experiencing something on my own. So I will do that.
That list is just for starters, I have tons of other goals from eating at Nobu, learning to ride a motorbike – which will infuriate some people close to me, but sorry it’s something I want to do – and my personal big goal quit smoking (quit day locked in for May 23rd and this time I WILL NOT buckle). The list of course is endless and I like that, it means when I have succeeded in one goal I can work on another and then another, I will always have something to strive for and to engage me in life. After all life isn’t a spectator sport and you will only get the best from it by participating to the fullest, and participate I damn well will. I challenge you to do the same.
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